I’m not sure at what point I stopped laughing so much, but in hindsight, there is a huge difference between the carefree girl I used to be and the woman I am today. Of course, as an adult, life does tend to get more serious. However, I never imagined that I would become the kind of person who can’t find the humor in life no matter what.
I never noticed the transition, until one day you walked into my life and made me laugh so hard I couldn’t breathe. I had forgotten just how good that feeling was. Your abs may ache, forcing you to contemplate going to the gym more often. That feeling of shaking with laughter, your cheeks tight from the grin spread as wide as it can across your face, it simply can’t be beaten.
I remember giggling like that often as a child, but I can’t express to him how grateful I am to feel like that part of me is back. Yes, being a child with no responsibilities is one of the reasons it is so easy to be relaxed. However, I don’t want to be the kind of person who forgets to schedule in time for laughter. Life simply shouldn’t be like that. The people around you, the life you build for yourself, it should all bring joy and laughter seamlessly into your life. He was an eye-opening reminder of this.
To the guy who makes me laugh,
Within a matter of minutes, you had me in a fit of laughter. I knew everyone around us thought I was being a silly flirt, but I honestly couldn’t help but crack up at everything you were saying. Your grin was spread from ear to ear through every joke and you knew you had me hooked before I even remembered your name.
It’s hard to find someone who can bring that kind of light into your life. Someone who can turn a bad mood into a good mood, simply because you know when to make light of something. That is a skill I desperately want to learn and surround myself with. The ability to bring that kind of joy to other people isn’t something to be overlooked.
When I see your name pop up on my phone, I think I start to laugh before I even open it. I just know what is coming and it makes me extremely happy. Life lately has had me very serious and focused, and having you walk into my life when you did was an absolute gift. Even for the ten seconds we talk during the day, I’m finally able to breathe. That is until you have me laughing and I lose my breath all over again – but in a good way of course!
I want you to know and understand how much you are appreciated. If not by anyone else, you are by me. Thank you for teaching me how to laugh again. It has made me feel more relaxed than I have felt in months. No matter how brief or how long your time ends up being in my life, you have honestly been a gift that I desperately needed.
It’s not that I haven’t dated guys in the past who made me smile or laugh because certainly some of them did at the time. The difference is that you go out of your way to make sure that I’m smiling and enjoying myself. It’s obvious how important the joy of those around you is, and that is something I truly admire. I have no idea what place you will fall into in my life, or how long will you remain in that place, but I know that is okay. Maybe your joy is the kind that’s meant to be spread. I’m just happy to have received the portion that I have so far. All I know is, never stop telling your jokes, because, in their own (immensely silly) way, they’re making the world a better place.
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