We’ve all experienced the pain of falling for someone we can’t have, but with the current state of the world, we can now experience the unexpected pain of falling for someone we can’t have yet. This poem is inspired by the physical and emotional anguish of knowing that you have to wait to spend quality time with someone you’re beginning to love and how you’re prone to feeling weak when those emotions arise.
Everything hurts
I writhe in pain
As I sink
Further
And further
Into the promise of you.
A promise unfulfilled
By time and distance alone.
I feel weak
As my body quakes
And my knees buckle
Surrendering
Further
And further
To your absence
The unfulfilled promise of you.
You strengthen me
Filling my softness
With your calloused resolve
The ashy remains
Of your painful past.
Why, then, do you make me weak?
Letting
Me
Fall
With abandon
Into your arms.
Listening to me
Hang
Onto every word
The unfulfilled promise of you
In a wild world
That tears us apart.
Seeing me throb
Heart over head
Hearing me cry
As I fall
Head over heels
For you.
I live in the pain
Of questions unanswered
Words unspoken
Fantasies unfulfilled
By the promise of you.
Wondering why I ache
Why I writhe
Why I heave and sob
Day after day.
As you share your hardened past
And I discover the strength
To move forward
One step at a time.
But as you complicate my every thought
I lie in my weakness
Bewildered and prone
With one single answer.
Maybe you make me weak.
Maybe the thought of you
Is too much
For my fragile heart
My tender body
To bear.
Maybe you make me
Fall to my knees
Ache
Writhe
Hurt
And break
As I long for you
To return to me.
Maybe you disturb my peace
Even as you restore it
Making me feel again
In a life numbed by pain.
Maybe it is only you
Who can make me
Feel this way
This burning
Longing
Aching
Throbbing
Way.
This way that softens me
Melting my heart
Tying me to you forever
In this wild world
Of unanswered questions
And unfulfilled promises.
As I sink
Further and further
Into the
Unfulfilled promise of you
I face the truth.
I fell for you
Letting you soften me
In this wild world
Full of unfulfilled promises.
Maybe you make me weak.
Although we may feel that our current circumstances bring us into a world of “unfulfilled promises,” it’s important to remember that if our partners truly care about us, they’ll be waiting for us when this unique time ends. We may feel weak for caring about our significant others so deeply and not being able to see them, but the challenges of COVID-19 can make our relationships stronger than we ever thought possible.
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