I remember meeting you for the first time and being unaware of how much you’d mean to me in the future. Here we are now with our history; I can’t believe how far we’ve come.
We’ve been separated for a while, living our own lives and becoming the people we’re meant to be. It’s tough sometimes because I miss seeing you as much as I used to, but I’ve learned something.
I’ve learned that no matter how far this life separates us, we will always have a deep, loving connection.
I’ve been interested in you since the moment we met. That first time I saw you and looked into your eyes, I was like, “Oh, hello!” It felt like I’ve known you forever, and I swear we were soulmates in another life. And I’m convinced that’s how it also will be in this lifetime.
I was driving the other day, and you came into my mind. I was thinking about us and everything we’ve been through. Good times, hard times, and times when we didn’t see each other got me thinking.
No matter how hectic life became, we always managed to find a way back to each other. We were always involved in each other’s lives. In the most bizarre ways, too.
No matter what happened, you somehow always showed up.
Even when it felt like the universe was trying to tear us apart, something made us reach out to the other. And I think that’s because a bond like ours is one that can never truly be broken.
Don’t get me wrong; I’ve gone through my crazy moments. I’ve driven my best friend crazy by overanalyzing every little detail about us.
I’ve stalked your social media and paid attention to the people you follow. I have given myself heartbreak by checking your profile and noticing something that made me anxious. It finally got to the point where I asked myself, “What am I doing? I can’t keep doing this to myself.” Then, I realized I was only giving off desperate and clingy energy. I realized I had to stop.
“I’m not going to keep chasing and running after you because I know that at the end of this crazy life, you will be the person I end up with.”
So, I changed my mindset and decided to start focusing on myself. And let me tell you: Being single is such a fantastic thing. And I don’t need to keep chasing you anymore.
I’m discovering things about myself that I didn’t know. I’m finding hobbies that I love and learning about things I never dreamed I’d enjoy learning about. And most importantly, I’m focusing on myself and becoming someone I want to be.
And I have to say I’ve learned that I’m pretty damn impressive.
I’ve learned to stop worrying about when and if we will get together, and I’ve decided to trust that will happen when the time is right.
Yes, I’d love to spend time with you and see you as often as I used to. I think about what it will be like to be in a relationship with you.
But right now, I’m comfortable doing my own thing and being OK, knowing you’re coming to me. You’re just taking the long way this time, and you know what? That’s cool. I’ve learned that backroads lead to the most beautiful destinations, even if that means it will take a little bit longer than expected.
If waiting a little longer for life to figure itself out for us means having the most beautiful love story with you, I’d take that over a fling any day.
And believe me, I know it will be worth the wait. So, there’s no need for me to continue chasing you.
Think about it. The universe found a way to bring us into each other’s lives. All the circumstances and challenges that had to happen for us to meet just prove that we’re meant to be. Imagine how beautiful our story will be once we come back together as better, wiser, and stronger individuals.
I fully know and trust that that will happen for us. After all, look at our story thus far. It’s a pretty good one, isn’t it?
So while you do you, I’m going to do me without chasing you. And when the time’s right, we’ll be back together, better than ever. Deal?
I can promise you one thing: I’m going to love you, and I’m going to mean it.
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