Despite Our Relationship, I Never Want To Speak To You Again

You broke the relationship we had. One that I really cherished. But now I realize that you probably never gave a shit because you chose to act the way you did.

When something happens, I can feel any way I choose. 

I’m allowed to be sad. I’m allowed to be angry. And I’m allowed to be pissed. Sure, this could come off as irrational, but it’s how I see the situation.

You don’t get to tell me how to feel. You have no right to tell me I shouldn’t be angry at the situation. And I can feel a certain way if I choose to as well.

I’m allowed to be pissed at you. I’m allowed not to speak to you ever again. How I choose to respond is up to me. 

I can hate you if I choose to. I know I won’t because it’s not physically possible for me, but that backs up my point even more. I’m allowed to feel that way. 

It doesn’t matter who you are to me. For example, I don’t care if you’ve been there my entire life or for two seconds. I don’t owe anyone anything. And just because we have a relationship doesn’t mean you get to speak to me in any way you see fit. 

I’m allowed to cut you off and never speak to you again. And honestly, why would I want to have a relationship with you after the way you had spoken to me and treated me?

Seriously, consider that. If I spoke to you in the degrading way you spoke to me, would you want to speak to me again? If I acted in the immature way you did, would you want to keep our relationship intact?

I have a strong feeling you wouldn’t. I think you would be just as mad as I am, maybe even more. 

So maybe you can finally see my side of the equation.

As of right now, I’m done with our relationship, and I don’t think or know if it will ever go back to the way it was.

The only way I can see us mending fences is if I got an apology from you. And even then, I don’t know if I want to restore the relationship.

You shattered my positive view of you and broke my heart. I don’t think I want to restore a relationship with someone who felt it was OK to speak to me that way.

Even if you did apologize, it would have to be sincere. Otherwise, you’re just putting a bandaid on and saying, “There I fixed it,” even though all you did was protect yourself.

So for right now, the relationship that we once had is broken. And I don’t know if I want it back to how it was because it won’t be the same.

Just because you love someone doesn’t mean you have to keep them around, especially if they don’t treat you properly. Love doesn’t mean you get to say and do whatever you want. And you sure as hell don’t throw it in the faces of the people you claim you love.

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