Just once, I want to be the one that is too hard to leave behind.
I want to be the one that you can’t wrap your head around. The girl that you can’t seem to figure out how to win over and that makes you work for it. The girl that makes you want to step up your game and that you keep trying to win over. The girl that has stolen all of your attention and won’t let go. I want to be the girl that stands out from the rest. Just once, I want to be that girl that you can’t seem to get out of your head and that keeps you up at night.
Just once, I want to be the one you can’t walk away from.
I want to be the girl that is better than just a backup plan or your number two. A girl that you would consider more than just a one night stand or someone you can see whenever. The girl that you want to make time for and go out of your way to see. The girl that you would drive an hour out of your way just to kiss or hold when she needed you most. I want to be someone that you want to try new things with. Just once, I want to be something more than what I am in reality.
Just once, I want to be the one you can’t get over.
I want to be the girl that is not fighting for your attention or battling to see you. That girl that you aren’t afraid to call at all hours of the night just to hear my voice or just to let her know you are thinking about her. That girl that you aren’t afraid to be yourself around or afraid to admit your feelings to. The girl that makes you want to be a better person or change your ways for. I want to be someone more than the something that I am. Just once, I want to be the girl for you.
Just once, I want to be the one that is too hard to say goodbye to.
But maybe, just once, I want to be the one to break your heart. I want to be able to see how it feels to not feel anything and know in the morning, you are going to be the one left confused. To be able to show you how much it hurts to be left hanging on to nothing but silence. To be able to see what it feels like to feel absolutely nothing and leave you feeling lost for doing nothing wrong. To be able to know that I am the one that will be okay and you will be the one left thinking of what could have been. Just once, I want to see what it is like to be you looking at me.
Just once I want to be the one is who is able to walk away from it all and not look back.
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